Quarantine and Introverts

Quarantine is boring, introverts are boring but quarantine is a bit less boring for introverts, how interesting is that(chuckling). I have finally started seeing better sides of becoming the ‘introvert’. Why? Because that has always been part of my life, confining to self. 

Being an introvert, one thing I heard often while growing was,’’ Mr.X/Miss Y is so friendly and adaptive and can easily deal with any situation. How will you make up your living? And that’s the whole reason people like him/her more than you.’’

‘’You didn’t talk much back then, I thought you were very arrogant and mean girl.’’

‘’You don’t seem to be interested in being social, do you?’’

These are few lines all introverts encounter in some part of life.

Yes, I am not as social as the world expects me to be. Public speaking is important part of communication in today’s era and I am aware of it too. But this time I want to share about my comfort zone, ‘’the introvert world’.

Not feeling like to talk with the people and not initiating any friendly talks to stranger is what I look like.  Always a homebody, a bore, a reticent, observer and what not, those are few of my names. But there are lot of misconceptions about being introvert. They are not much affable or folksy is that they are not much comfortable with surrounding until their mind feels comfortable. To be honest, they are very curious about the people the way they express,how they behave etc. and 'introverts' love to listen. 

First, they calculate the person on the basis of their treatment then only they get used to that the environment. They are more conscious as they feel people are more aware about the way they talk because they talk less as compared to outgoing person. There is always fear of talking anything wrong.  It’s irony because people ask us to step forward and express our emotions but they are the ones who judge us, that is the part that really feels like regretting moment for ‘’being too naive’’. However, people don’t know behind those composed persons are the fun-loving people, wanting to be handled carefully, bit rebellious sometime.

These were the questions my mind had to for being ‘introvert’ –

1. Why am I born as this weird creature, man is a social animal but why ain’t I? (yawning)
2. Do people like me for not having connected with them in words?
3. I’m too boring for their gathering, maybe.
4. Why is it so difficult to open up to people and to be expressive enough?
5. Everyone feels comfortable with Mr.X and Miss y but not with me, why?
6. What shall I do to get comfortable in public?

Seriously a mind full of questions and thoughts. I had even googled on ‘’how to be extrovert’’ many times (chuckling).

For all these years remained unanswered I’m now seeing the positive sides of it for example a gentle nudge now in quarantine. I feel blessed to have given enough time to myself, finding my needs and desires and prioritizing ‘self-time’. I can see wonders of ‘silence’, the creativity, the decency, the ability to live consciously, to speak in control. 

Being introvert has given me, inner world of peace, power and healing. I’m blessed. Thankyou, almighty.