Viewing from fictional character point of view: Note of apology

If Otis would write apology letter to Maeve,

I was the sun and you were the moon, nobody would realize how much they love each other that they are constantly making effort to see each other but when I am about to reach you, my moon, in the  night I need to disappear to show your magnificence to the world. That is what love is, ending ‘love’ to see ‘the love’ flourish.

 I know I am so annoying but I saw my life getting away from me,

I just wanted to stop it from going far…

I know I annoyed you, but all I wanted to engage you in myself so that you would feel happy

I know I constantly disturb you but all I wanted was to make you feel how desperately I needed you

I am sorry, I only know how hardly I spent the day and how much I miss you

Love come back, I love you and I can’t afford losing you

Darling please, I am waiting for you…

I know you might hate me, from among all in the world but I was helpless. Even though I knew what was right, I couldn’t apply it practically. You would have compared my love with another but my decision was not based on the amount of love I do.  I never knew how beautiful the moment was until it became a memory. It’s crazy how depression changes the way you see things. You can see darkness on the brightest days and now I see everything dull in this glittery world. You said nothing grows without a rain so asked me to learn embracing the storms of life. I was going through the notes you gave me, it was just one interval of time to me but now it hurts. I guess human would have been less painful if they were devoid of emotion called ‘love’. Trust me it was hard to fall for someone whom I knew would not fall back. It’s like how hard you try to get rid of that person but end up thinking about them. I checked my phone continuously after you left me, in hope I could receive something from you but day by day my hands felt lazy to get to the phone in despair because they knew nothing would be there. Every time I fell for you, there was nobody to catch me up. I can’t take anything seriously now because I have always been played. I can’t love because I’m broken. You only remind me of lonely feeling. I wish I could have had you for longer. It’s been too much for me. I guess all sadness are overflowed and I can’t hold my feelings anymore. It’s sad that you miss someone but they don’t miss you back.

I might be broken, but I am still here for you, okay!